I meditated one night last summer unable to sleep once again, tears in my eyes, when I merged with Christ’s heart for a few moments. I have done this meditation many times since, and though it is hard for me to stay with Him and His peaceful, loving energy for very long, I return again and again to His heart. I wiggle and I squirm. Meditation is not my strongest skill, but I continue to sit and breathe. The first time I did this meditation, sitting on a purple cushion under the painting “Healing Companion,” I felt electrically connected to everyone in a web of golden Light. There was a charge in the connection. I felt total peace. I felt like I would be okay even if my baby died. My heart expanded in love and light and unity.
In the center of Christ’s heart I felt loved and whole, one small part of a bigger work of creation. I was one pregnant woman who would bury her baby, but I was loved and there was mercy being showered into every cell of my being, into the depths of my soul. Christ means “Light” and I am often stunned by the things that people say in Jesus’ name. Christ is loving, unlike some of His judgmental followers. When I hear something crazy that someone says on behalf of Jesus I sometimes have to take a breath and remember the Christ that I follow, who loves all unconditionally, no matter what, as I say to my three-year-old son. I imagine Christ appearing to the myrrhbearing women after the Resurrection. His love fills me to overflowing and through this meditation I can remind myself again and again of my place in Him, in His heart and in His creation.
Are you ready to try this?
Close your eyes and get into a comfortable seated position. Take a few cleansing breaths. Relax your body. Imagine sitting behind Christ who is also in the same seated position. Merge your heart with His heart. Enter Him through His heart. You are one with Christ. You are completely surrounded by Christ and His Light. Take deep breaths and feel this energy of deep peace. You might see certain colors or hear the refrain from a special song or hymn. Continue to take deep breaths and feel Christ’s energy. Feel your place and connection to everyone and everything in the Universe. Breathe in peace and acceptance. Christ accepts you as you are. Please accept yourself as you are. Forgive yourself as you are forgiven by God. Stay here as long as you like, allowing your heart to be showered with love and light. When you are ready open your eyes and wiggle your toes and fingers before getting up.
I will meet you at the center of my Universe with love in my heart no matter what.